So, I'm blogging a bit early when I should be getting ready for work. I'm just tired...tired of everything. Not even physically tired but emotionally and psychologically drained. I'm not impressed with the indirect guilt trips, or shots at me. I'm not perfect I understand that. But all I'm asking for is just a little bit of understanding. Try to understand my side of the situation. I've looked at all angles of the situation and I understand your side. But if the tables were turned would I be understanding? Of course I would be.
I just want to give up...not care about my dreams, my aspirations, my hopes for a better life. For what?? Just to please everyone. But I'm so tired of having to please everyone. I want to make MY own decisions, MY own choices and worry about ME! I'm trying not to let my day be ruined but I can't help it.
Thanks to those who have listened to me vent since last night and have understood me. You guys are always there when I need that shoulder to turn to and that ear to listen to me. I'm sorry for being such a Princess! lols
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
nonsense
In life, we sometimes try to go out and find "love". But what exactly does love look like? How do we know when love is standing right infront of us? For some people, love is having butterflies flying around in the pit of your stomach at even the thought of that special someone. For others, love is learning to accept the not so good qualities in that someone.
I think that the search or the discovery of love is similar to finding your favourite ice cream flavour. Ice cream and love?? Well, think about walking into an ice cream parlour and you're bombarded with a variety of flavours to choose from. You walk up and down, you read the names of the flavours but in the end you have to choose just one. But how do you know which one to choose or which one will be your favourite? Well, you end up having to try a few flavours here and there until you finally decide what you want. Have you ever chosen a flavour because it looked so yummy and even the name was tempting, but after just one lick you realize you made the worst choice ever. Similar to love...you don't always get the right flavour and often we're so blinded by the way it looks. But all we can really do is just keep trying.
So you've finally found that favourite ice cream flavour...and no matter which ice cream parlour you go to, you just have to have that same flavour. And you notice that each and every time, there's a new flavour being introduced but you still go for the safe flavour because you know that you like it and you know what it's all about. You have found that you're quite comfortable with just that ONE flavour. Often, we as people get into that same pattern to "love"....we get COMFORTABLE. We just settle for that one flavour without trying out the rest of the flavours not realizing that we could potentially be missing out on the hottest flavour out there.
Ok, so you're all probably wondering...where is she going with this blog? Well, I suppose what I'm getting at is that we have to keep trying until we find that perfect one but it doesn't always mean we have to settle just because we're comfortable.
Ok ok already...basically I thought I'd blog because I wanted to vent what I was feeling inside. There's a boy...ok...well there's two so far. And yeah, I think I like the one because physically he's my type. And well then there's the other guy...and well I like his personality. Both two great guys...but two guys who disappoint me equally. One only calls when he needs something from me...and the other has stopped calling. It's been a long time since I've been involved with anyone...and maybe I'm starting to get to that age where I feel like it's time to settle. And when you have that feeling, you're not quite sure if the feelings you have for someone is all that genuine.
So now I've vowed to myself...that I wouldn't give in to either of these guys. I won't attempt at calling either one of them...and just see what happens.
I think that the search or the discovery of love is similar to finding your favourite ice cream flavour. Ice cream and love?? Well, think about walking into an ice cream parlour and you're bombarded with a variety of flavours to choose from. You walk up and down, you read the names of the flavours but in the end you have to choose just one. But how do you know which one to choose or which one will be your favourite? Well, you end up having to try a few flavours here and there until you finally decide what you want. Have you ever chosen a flavour because it looked so yummy and even the name was tempting, but after just one lick you realize you made the worst choice ever. Similar to love...you don't always get the right flavour and often we're so blinded by the way it looks. But all we can really do is just keep trying.
So you've finally found that favourite ice cream flavour...and no matter which ice cream parlour you go to, you just have to have that same flavour. And you notice that each and every time, there's a new flavour being introduced but you still go for the safe flavour because you know that you like it and you know what it's all about. You have found that you're quite comfortable with just that ONE flavour. Often, we as people get into that same pattern to "love"....we get COMFORTABLE. We just settle for that one flavour without trying out the rest of the flavours not realizing that we could potentially be missing out on the hottest flavour out there.
Ok, so you're all probably wondering...where is she going with this blog? Well, I suppose what I'm getting at is that we have to keep trying until we find that perfect one but it doesn't always mean we have to settle just because we're comfortable.
Ok ok already...basically I thought I'd blog because I wanted to vent what I was feeling inside. There's a boy...ok...well there's two so far. And yeah, I think I like the one because physically he's my type. And well then there's the other guy...and well I like his personality. Both two great guys...but two guys who disappoint me equally. One only calls when he needs something from me...and the other has stopped calling. It's been a long time since I've been involved with anyone...and maybe I'm starting to get to that age where I feel like it's time to settle. And when you have that feeling, you're not quite sure if the feelings you have for someone is all that genuine.
So now I've vowed to myself...that I wouldn't give in to either of these guys. I won't attempt at calling either one of them...and just see what happens.
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