...i'm so cheesed right now...
why?? just cause...
cause of people's small gestures to show me that they care one way or another....
...i'm pretty open when it comes to showing people that i care about them
i usually go out of my way to point it out to them...
and so when someone in return shows me that they care...
it causes my heart to smile.
my heart smiles when i think about the special people in my life....and the gift of their friendship
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
i'm feeling depressed today...this week actually. Everything is starting to just build up inside of me...and it's starting to suffocate me. To a point where all I want to do is just cry...and cry until I can't cry anymore. I can't even explain why I'm feeling the way I'm feeling. Because I don't even know why I'm feeling the way I'm feeling right now. Nothing seems to be going right...nothing ever happens as they should. Change is the inevitable...and it's how we deal with change that matters, isn't it??
There is so much weight on my shoulders of the burden that I seem to be carrying from work, life, family, finances etc. I can't stand the idea of standing in this exact same spot and doing nothing. I can no longer wear a smile on my face, when deep down inside I'm dying slowly. It's getting to the point where I'm ready to pack my things and not look back. There's this urgency within me to flee from all that is familiar and to venture into something so unfamiliar. However, even with the unfamiliarity of what may lie ahead...there's this feeling of comfort slowly burning in the deepest parts of my soul.
Maybe there I will find that happiness or even that missing link or discover something about myself that I failed to find these past few years. I haven't felt this depressed in such a long time. Last time I was this depressed...I didn't like the person in the mirror. I want to take over before it's too late.
TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
5
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
10
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
15
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference
There is so much weight on my shoulders of the burden that I seem to be carrying from work, life, family, finances etc. I can't stand the idea of standing in this exact same spot and doing nothing. I can no longer wear a smile on my face, when deep down inside I'm dying slowly. It's getting to the point where I'm ready to pack my things and not look back. There's this urgency within me to flee from all that is familiar and to venture into something so unfamiliar. However, even with the unfamiliarity of what may lie ahead...there's this feeling of comfort slowly burning in the deepest parts of my soul.
Maybe there I will find that happiness or even that missing link or discover something about myself that I failed to find these past few years. I haven't felt this depressed in such a long time. Last time I was this depressed...I didn't like the person in the mirror. I want to take over before it's too late.
TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
5
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
10
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
15
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference
-Robert Frost
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
friendship
The value of a friendship can mean so many things to so many people.
I truly value my friendship...granted I do take some for granted. But the ones that I do hold near and dear to my heart, I try my best to cherish them. I don't want to count how many times you did this for me, or how long I've known you. I just want to know that unconditionally you'll always be there for me to support me, to encourage me and to appreciate me.
Lately, I've turned to certain people in my life to be that shoulder to cry on, to be that ear that listens to me vent endlessly, that sound board to throw out my ideas to. And I can't express how grateful I am to them. You're friendship brings a smile to my soul to know that there are people out there who aren't looking for anything back in return. I hope that when the time comes when you'll need that special friend, that you can turn to me to take on your heavy burdens.
I truly value my friendship...granted I do take some for granted. But the ones that I do hold near and dear to my heart, I try my best to cherish them. I don't want to count how many times you did this for me, or how long I've known you. I just want to know that unconditionally you'll always be there for me to support me, to encourage me and to appreciate me.
Lately, I've turned to certain people in my life to be that shoulder to cry on, to be that ear that listens to me vent endlessly, that sound board to throw out my ideas to. And I can't express how grateful I am to them. You're friendship brings a smile to my soul to know that there are people out there who aren't looking for anything back in return. I hope that when the time comes when you'll need that special friend, that you can turn to me to take on your heavy burdens.
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